everyday with Joleen

1. Continue finish 2/3 of the bible (failed 2009 XD)

2. Fast & pray once a week (failed 2009 too) haha

3. finish reading 4 books (try to be realistic LOLx)

4. Join counselling class

5. LOOSE WEIGHT and exercise weekly.. (too improve stamina ceh wah.. seriously.. i always very weak in stamina lol)

6. Improve prayer life

7. grow in Love & Holiness

1 Thessalonians 3
¹²May the Lord make your love increase and overflow for each other and for everyone else, just as ours does for you. ¹³May he strengthen your hearts so that you will be blameless and holy in the presence of our God and Father when our Lord Jesus comes with all his holy ones.

8. Strong Finance Management (to clear my PTPTN loan)

9. Improve my anger management (got improvement la at 2009, still need to improve lol)

10. to do my best in work place.

11. Able to make friends in new church & workplace.. NOT enemy yea hahaha.

12. Family/ relative salvation

13. BREAKTHROUGH in my family & relatives! I want to see those bondages that tie us so tightly been broken down.. PRAY & PRAY.

14. Ministry would be – worship & decipleship =) I guess still my strength rite? hehee

15. GET MARRIEDDDDD kakakkakaa… okok main point is enjoy the process of wedding preparation and God will bless and provide us =)

This year I had grown a lot in the walk with God after transfering to Nilai CG.

Maybe coz of the workload has reduce, I have time for restoration and having a long time in thinking, reflecting, planning what to do next .

I have taste the goodness of God so much this year,

I have also come to God’s presence easier, I have known His voice better. I know what He will tells me when I pray.

I have seen things in more positive way this year,

I have know my calling better,

I am glad I can grow and use my talent which given by God. I know if God had give me talent, I got to use it.. practice it and benefit the Kingdom of God.

I am glad God take away my leadership title so that I can be humble and serve as a servant of God.

I am glad I got to trust God fully coz of the situation I have to .. hehehe…

God helps me overcome many of the struggles this years, and I can relate with ppl better this year.

So come to think of it.

HE IS SO GREAT.

Sorry to say I had bit emo today.

There is someone come n comment us that our CG are lack of challenges throughout the year.. then we Got to keep the presence of God with us all the time to touch lifes.. and when we have challenges, we will desperately look to God and generally have better relationship.

HELLO… I am very sorry to ask. How well do you know us? Is it the group need to be sorrowful everytime then that is only call can carry the presence of GOD?? This is … mmm i donno is kinda a controversial topic maybe? i donno.. lol. But anyhow i cant agree or cant take it when the ppl not even close to us and judge us this way coz he/she might just get info from other ppl n say it.

I have gone through challenges that not many ppl understand this year, talking about my family problem is weird and I just don wish to talk it out.. I din tell you (the ppl who judge today) doesnt mean that I am just having MILD challenges this year… LOL.

and you are not close with the rest of the ppl in the team, as u know the ppl in the team are very simple. they wont purposely tell you what had they gone through unless you are that close or they really need to. I just can say our group ppl mostly are happy go lucky type of ppl… we are jus love fellowship, sharing laughter all the time  and I do see growth in the group in quality ways… u want to see quantity rite? you know what? I am glad I am not directly under u, u know that? lol..

I JUST DON AGREE WITH UR ASSUMPTION.. why the leader just agree what he say?? -.- hahaha sorry..

Next year there is HUGE changes.

1. changes of friendship,  over the years I do not think friendship can last forever.  Now I do experience same thing again .. and I do not want to mention already since it already end of the year.. can end it anyway very soon.

2. I got to get a new job

3. I am shifting back home due to I lost my job in cyberjaya.

4. I am changing church

5. my dad might leave overseas for long term. So I got to stay back in Klang to pay all the house bills.. ok… the house got alot of aircondssssssss………… lol!!! siao liao… somemore ah got one relative staying here.. hopefully it will be ok in finance..

busy.

I went to this exhibition with RM5 entry and and parking RM8 (how long I nv pay such expensive parking fees d @.@) at Midvalley. Me, siew boon n her bf teman Min Hui to this event coz she wants to brings her rabbit for competition.

I reach there around 12 something in the afternoon, then I have my lunch at Nyonya Colours. John recommend.

the restaurant has quite nice interior and atmosphere.

I order Mee Siam + Honey Chicken.. very nice o

The Sour Plum drink also very very nice!!~~
And Cucur Udang (I felt that cucur udang that I make taste better than this )

After tat I go to the exhibition to look for min hui and her sister. When I reach there, the rabbits are having fashion competition, I saw some very “yau yeng” rabbit as the owner make the rabbit’s front hair punk like those leng chai HAHA.. cute nia.. I din see much of the fashion competition.

I walk around places to see different animals.. N I really scare coz the dogs are everywhere >.< especially those looks like very fierce n very BIG size =_=

such as

I first time see Chow Chow, really big size dog look like lion…. According to the ppl there this dogs are very tame.. BUt but.. its still very scary..

more dogs.

HUGE SInerian Husky?? I think John loves this haha

poor toy poodle , wearing shoes how the dog walk ler?

dogs competition, the very funny Chiwawa twins

ok i see this BIG cat (nice fur).. look like tiger this time

ok i also see very big dog like Saint Bernard, coz my hand keep shaking =_=
so i din get to shoot them.. got 2 somemore !

西施is very common there, n very noisy hhaa

this is very shy hairy poodle HAHAHHA.. cute dao…

ok i donno what dog is this but i see it in cartoon =_=.. this dog freaks me out the most coz he met his friend (all dogs are “he” to me), his fren that stand next to him one.. n both of them get quite high n chatting n walk here n there =_=.. i almost want to run d.. .. haha

Ferrets ???

Found this very nice song. “beautiful one” happy listening. It makes me happy when I am down.

Psalm 136 (Contemporary English Version)

Psalm 136

God’s Love Never Fails

¹Praise the LORD! He is good.God’s love never fails.
Yes! He forgive me again and again T.T Helps to change a very emotional person to less emotional one haha

²Praise the God of all gods.God’s love never fails.
There is no other gods like you

³Praise the Lord of lords.God’s love never fails.
I still can’t understand how can I breakthrough but I know you won’t give up on me

⁴Only God works great miracles. ^[a] God’s love never fails.
I always always sees how I get a job and survive in Cyberjaya is a miracle.
- get hired 1 day after the interview
- freelance come just right in time when I almost in need

⁵With wisdom he made the sky.God’s love never fails.
With wisdom He create me too.

⁶The Lord stretched the earth over the ocean.God’s love never fails.
The nature is so beautiful

⁷He made the bright lights in the sky.God’s love never fails.
Lights my way back to home.

⁸He lets the sun rule each day. God’s love never fails.
So that we can live

⁹He lets the moon and the stars rule each night. God’s love never fails.
It makes the sky beautiful at night when I look out from car

¹⁰God struck down the first-born in every Egyptian family. God’s love never fails.
I don have incident so kua cheong so God don’t have to kill anyone to save me.. THANK GODDD hahaha

¹¹He rescued Israel from Egypt. God’s love never fails.
God saved me out off the cage early this year, THANK GOD

¹²God used his great strength and his powerful arm.God’s love never fails.
Thank God for stopping the car from being smash me into pieces early this year.

¹³He split the Red Sea ^[b] apart. God’s love never fails.
Thank God I know how to swim =D

¹⁴The Lord brought Israel safely through the sea. God’s love never fails.
He is leading MMU & NILAI

¹⁵He destroyed the Egyptian king and his army there. God’s love never fails.
thank U for always protecting me from enemy who always try to influence my mind

¹⁶The Lord led his people through the desert. God’s love never fails.
THANK U FOR LEADING MMU & NILAI!
also Thank U for ever providance in finance when I am so broke

¹⁷Our God defeated mighty kings. God’s love never fails.
He will defeat H1N1!!!

¹⁸And he killed famous kings. God’s love never fails.
H1N1zzzzzzz

¹⁹One of them was Sihon, king of the Amorites. God’s love never fails.
H1N1, H1N1, H1N1 of H1N1!!!

²⁰Another was King Og of Bashan. God’s love never fails.
Denggi perhaps? & 脑膜炎

²¹God took away their land. God’s love never fails.
Let them no where to spread HOHOHO

²²He gave their land to Israel, the people who serve him. God’s love never fails.
this one i donno how to imagine…

²³God saw the trouble we were in. God’s love never fails.
YAYA this one i know, He always understand me

²⁴He rescued us from our enemies. God’s love never fails.
I think no need to do anything just let Him works. Lazy me…

²⁵He gives food to all who live. God’s love never fails.
Yea i eat a lot food nowadays

²⁶Praise God in heaven! God’s love never fails.
thank u very very much lo!~ Terima Kasih banyak banyak

I am happy yesterday coz the cheque i keep waiting from my Singapore client finally reach to me yesterday =)

This amount actually is much cheaper than the work load I work, however I thank God for His blessing in time of these coz my company owe me almost 2 months of salary =_= But with all the freelance I did 2 months ago, the money I get able to helps me go through the tough situation I had n more than enough =)

keke.

Thank U Father

Im always been thinking whether Am I a simple person or complicated person? Alot of times i wish to be simple coz I can just make decision more boldly without much consideration. I mean well, kids most likely like that? lol, but im not sure is it coz of environment forcing me to think more? think deeper? that’s when I get a lot of worries in LOL..

Actually is not, the deeper i think, the deeper i know about myself.

After much incident, today this moment i just thought of I have let go a lot of things past few years.

I have let go much of PRIDE. I am a prideful person, coz Im the eldest at home and my parents love me very much. They always treat me as a mature lady that quite(not that la) independent girl who can take care herself well. Also my school results always quite good.. (not top la.. ). Thats how I find PRIDE in me. I really care how people think of me, I usually want to be the head and not the tail. I want people to praise me. Even when I have mistakes, I always want to fight it over until I win. LOL.. thats how people around me suffer, and PRIDE too leads to my anger problem & self centeredness.

As times goes by, the more I let go of my PRIDE & SELF CENTEREDNESS. THe more I am able to think of others.. I once was rebuke by someone that very close where I always talk about myself n not letting others to talk.. That time i was shocked and realize I am such a self centered person. I try to let go bit by bit. even though is hard….

EXPECTATION? nv forget to say that Im quite a perfectionist. I easily get nervous or discourage or dissapointed coz of my nature, I always have expectation on things, situation and especially people. Especially those who are close to me. Forexample bf.. lol.. to be in perfect relationship i always thought that the element of flowers, choclate, phone calls, time, attention, money are very important. Jus like i say go right, must go right LOL.. Well, I thank God coz of my shepherd and I really treasure the relationship and for most my bf. That i really learn to let go all these unreal expectation, rather just to receive. I learn to give..

Times goes, alot of area I start to let go. Yet a lot of people i still have a lot of EXPECTATION, forexample people under my care. I always set myself a goal for them that they must acchive this and that. When they coudln’t make it, I will be very superly sad. And this also thats why I hurt a lot last year and even this year that causing me almost to leave the ministry.. I nv know how bad it effect me until this week. And I really need to let go of this, coz they grow according to God’s will not mine. The right way is I should think of how to help them to grow up, and give .. Not to expect of any return or any reward. The reward that I am talking about is that I want people to know Joleen is good, thats why people under them are good too.. all these are selfish thoughts..

I really thankful that I realize this today, that I can have a chance to admit to Him that I am weak. I need help to go through this.

thats how I think of this post..

Good night everyone.

If I din get the word of prophesy last 2 week. I would really hate myself by now.