Archive for February, 2009

Free time

Haha.. Recently enjoy myself in my free time…

After practise praise and worship on Saturday, me and Charlotte went to Daniel house for dinner.. He cook worr.. nice nice.. now think back also paiseh coz i just keep talking nv help to clean the table nor plates :P

After that we went to THe MINES initially to shop for wardrobe, but sadly din get any coz daniel say this not good that not good. At that point really amaze by his ability to shop.. For me i think i will just simply get one and chao liao.. So when we thinking of going home, cHarlotte go to MOG spec shop to buy spec.

In the mean while waiting, me n daniel do some nonsense thing……

Daniel keep saying he likes this kind of shape… n me.. sadly i do no wat kind of spec suits me… everytime i wear I will turn out look like aunty or reminds me of my dad LOL forexample this spec MUAHHAHA…So till now i havent get a sun glasses yet (ya rite, just coz im kedekut).

At the end Charlotte go away with spec that is suits her.. you can know after she gets her new spec hehehe.

after sunday service.. I join MMU3 lunch coz I bring my colleague (LKW intern) to church.. She is very tired. so.. this is wat happen..

muahahahha jamesbond with his 2 gals.. (wat am i talking about =_= too free d..)

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Let go?

Im always been thinking whether Am I a simple person or complicated person? Alot of times i wish to be simple coz I can just make decision more boldly without much consideration. I mean well, kids most likely like that? lol, but im not sure is it coz of environment forcing me to think more? think deeper? that’s when I get a lot of worries in LOL..

Actually is not, the deeper i think, the deeper i know about myself.

After much incident, today this moment i just thought of I have let go a lot of things past few years.

I have let go much of PRIDE. I am a prideful person, coz Im the eldest at home and my parents love me very much. They always treat me as a mature lady that quite(not that la) independent girl who can take care herself well. Also my school results always quite good.. (not top la.. ). Thats how I find PRIDE in me. I really care how people think of me, I usually want to be the head and not the tail. I want people to praise me. Even when I have mistakes, I always want to fight it over until I win. LOL.. thats how people around me suffer, and PRIDE too leads to my anger problem & self centeredness.

As times goes by, the more I let go of my PRIDE & SELF CENTEREDNESS. THe more I am able to think of others.. I once was rebuke by someone that very close where I always talk about myself n not letting others to talk.. That time i was shocked and realize I am such a self centered person. I try to let go bit by bit. even though is hard…. :D

EXPECTATION? nv forget to say that Im quite a perfectionist. I easily get nervous or discourage or dissapointed coz of my nature, I always have expectation on things, situation and especially people. Especially those who are close to me. Forexample bf.. lol.. to be in perfect relationship i always thought that the element of flowers, choclate, phone calls, time, attention, money are very important. Jus like i say go right, must go right LOL.. Well, I thank God coz of my shepherd and I really treasure the relationship and for most my bf. That i really learn to let go all these unreal expectation, rather just to receive. I learn to give..

Times goes, alot of area I start to let go. Yet a lot of people i still have a lot of EXPECTATION, forexample people under my care. I always set myself a goal for them that they must acchive this and that. When they coudln’t make it, I will be very superly sad. And this also thats why I hurt a lot last year and even this year that causing me almost to leave the ministry.. I nv know how bad it effect me until this week. And I really need to let go of this, coz they grow according to God’s will not mine. The right way is I should think of how to help them to grow up, and give .. Not to expect of any return or any reward. The reward that I am talking about is that I want people to know Joleen is good, thats why people under them are good too.. all these are selfish thoughts..

I really thankful that I realize this today, that I can have a chance to admit to Him that I am weak. I need help to go through this.

thats how I think of this post.. :D

Good night everyone.

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Chinese New Year 2 & Valentine

Previous blog i din put up much photo, now is the time.

This is what my colleage Idea to give away small oranges to everyone in the office. So (see mei, Eunice, Siew Boon & me) give away this self package small oranges before CNY. Sweet design hor, See Mei design de.

Before CNY, my cg (nilai) having lau sheng cg together. Got like 10+ people cramp inside Chye Chear ’s Room to lau sheng. SOme of the people like me din get the chance.. so stand there and let ppl serve me XD


I did some simple decoration at home for CNY. Handmade flower.

My reunion dinner at a very high class seafood restaurant!! Add is Jalan Bungor, Bandar Botanic.. LOL.. no la.. Is my dad cook one.. keng hor.. He once said that he know how to cook crab.. WELL>>> REALLY ler!~~ haha.. so nice.

Almost every year after reunion dinner my family will got to watch mid night show. This year me n my siblings continue the tradition. GO to Bukit Raja Cinema watch “大喜事”, funny things is their digital “now showing” machine spoilt liao gagagaga. So using this manual one, so funny.

This is wat I do, watching the dog sleep during CNY

My cute cousin, her mom (my aunty) 40+ years old only give birth to her by accident lol. I like their family coz I can feel the warmest by how they treat each other, soft and loving. :)

NOt forget to mention that my Monitor spoilt. This is the words display on screen, John took the monitor back on Valentine’s day but he couldn’t fix it.

John once said that my mouse is spoilt d also. Even though i think still can use LOL.. So he bought this for me as Valentine present T.T this is expensive mouse -.-”"”" coz it look like egg? Thanks!

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If I din get the word of prophesy last 2 week. I would really hate myself by now.

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Chinese New Year is different this year

This year Chinese New Year is a very different year for many people coz a lot of people are feel uncertain for their future – Economic Tsunami.. Not only the working and parents are effected.  The students and kids also know that this year ang pau will be shrink and might notice those uncles and aunties are with long face LOL..

ok stop.. well i not so serious all the time.. this is doesn’t sound like me.

This year Chinese New year is very different for me. I finally din join the family & relatives Cameron trip. I join John’s secondary School Reunion Trip. Out of my expectation, my mom & bro also not joining the Cameron Trip this year.

So we family celebrate together in Klang this year!!~~ I couldn’t say much but I just can say is very fruitful and quality time of gather together. The fun part is when my sis bf family come and visit us. They are quiet traditional family. the mom expect her son will married a very qualified housewife. and they decided to come to get approval from my dad to let their son married his daughter hahaha!!

my dad tell me this conversation

boy’s mom: this time we come is to tell you that my son wants to married your daughter.

dad: Oh, If both of them think properly conside properly, I have no comment.

boy’s mom: wow you are so open. Although my son is not rich but he is a good man and will be a good husband

dad: Well, I can see that coz he always cook breakfast for my daughter

Yvonne sweat: wei don luan luan speak ler.. where got?!

boy’d dad smile: your dad din drink beer, so have very clear mind. Nv drunk.

me: (HAHAHAHHA)

well, seeing my sis has change from a gal to a housewife to be.. LOL.. happy for her la.. haha God Bless her marriage.. nv know that she will get married so early lol.. mayb i will be her bridesmaid lagi LOL..

This year also very different for me coz i finally enjoy CNY!! most of the years i don enjoy coz of tiring traveling and even visiting relatives.. the adults has their own agenda and the kids (me) are bored. Or those adults are very stressful talking about their miserable life >.<”"”"

well this year i travel with John n his secondary school frens. Crazy.. nice.. haha even though i donno them.

His frens very fun. I heard they are generally in art class, n john in the worst class ever HAHA.. they are fun n crap a lot. they put themselve as “ki siao” ppl as titled in facebook. Along the way I get to knwo them, enjoying seeing them doing lame things like having sand war in the sea, or boat fight or freesbie fight.. LOL.. thats make my trip very relaxing.

On sunday afternoon I decided to meet my old time secondary school friends. If I nv go with john on the trip i think i would not be decide to meet my friends. Cos my frens always put their gathering dates on Sunday afternoon where i have my sunday service.  I felt i should contact them after the trip so i go to meet them at 3pm.. i miss their sing k session but is ok.. as long as can meet them after 5 years at least nv meet them!.

John came too, he found out that my friends are so different from his.. coz my friends are all gals.. and we talk alot.. they talks about companies, each other job, erm money, finance, current market and all.. HAHA last time we talks about studies and subjects. Now still something nv change, they are still so hardworking and inteligent LOL.. the differences would be one of them change to be funnier and some change to be more gentle and lady like LOL. Generally all stil look pretty much the same, and prettier lol.

This year also very different coz i get to think alot. I meet a lot of people this CNY, get to know different people story and their culture and lifestyle. I start to think about my future.

what i really want to do? what is really serving God? Am I really have an abandon life which promised in the bible.

Seeing Other church christians ,they are enjoying. AM I?Is it all the time being in church and busy is call serving?
Being with family and friends is it meaning not serving God? And having a busy ministry life is it call good Christian? Is it that? Many times i busy but the ministry house or my room is so messy.. lol.. is it call serving God?

Well busy in the church and no time to be with friends and hang out with new friends and family, is it really serving God? I found out there is things that i really want to do, N that is something that i really want to do in life time. But I couldn’t until I get married MUAHAHA.. sad isn’t it? NO la not sad.. haha.. just thoughts.. SO im thinking, is this the correct life style of serving God?

I guess n find out, planing is so important.  First to have a clear goal for your life, 2nd set priority & 3rd dicipline.

I got to set goal so that I can move on easily. I still can do things that i really wants as long as I set the time frame right :D

I got to set priority right too so that I won’t be off balance in just focusing on doing 1 thing. Forexample, I got to learn more or add value for my career. I aso need to take care of my ownself health, family(coz im KL LANG), bf so that i can have wholesome life MUAHA.. Having healthy social life, know new friends,, and care more people. I kinda selfish one.. so i hope this year i can be more caring and putting others interest on me :D

Only until you start to give, then you can experience life (something like this from albert ainstein)

I got to be dicipline or else.. all wasted HAHA.. so..

I got to clean my room @.@ if not i feel myself still very messed up .. it is part of serving God rite ? LOL
this is my finding, how about you?


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