在教会里我是个小领袖，在家是大姐大，在CYBERJAYA的家也是长老。老了可不好玩… 唯独在工作上是无名小卒.
很多时候作领袖, 你的行为举止都能影响别人. 别人会觉得你什么都能做, 很多方面都很强.
“阿, 这个星期我很忙.. 不能来..” “你可以代替我做这个事吗?” 这是很常听到的事情. 再不然, 领袖有去不完的会议…
“这个星期有会议必须要出席” 有时候我很想推, 因为原本想去拍拖. 就是一些临时一定要出席的会议, 结果就删掉我原本的计划. 有时气死人的是, 当我出席时别人迟大到.. @.@ (那是很久很久的事情了, 现在安排时间比较妥当了)
有时候, 是欲哭无泪. 我算是完美主义者, 也是个情绪化的人. 其实有很多事情都能让我担心及伤心久久.. 最近有些事情发生. 在家里的时候, 不知要告诉谁.. 结果泪水就往肚里吞, 我还记得我连主日崇拜也不想去了.
“为什么你的脸这么难看?” 秀林见到我时这么说 “没什么,只是睡不好” 我根本不敢看她.. 过了几天才告诉她我的近况…
“其实你可以告诉一些家里的人, 她们都很成熟稳重” 这时才发现自己这么傻, 其实我只是个普通人.. 不必每个时刻把自己伪装得很高兴, 向没事发生一样. 而且应该让身边的人关心自己一些, 所以过后我渐渐的比较愿意分享自己的烦恼.
我是人, 是个普通的人.也是充满缺点的人, 但是想告诉一些的人听. 我明白你们的心情, 我关心你们每个人.. 每当一个人有事情, 我都会担心. 我知道现在是个难过的时候, 我知道你们心里很难过.. 我也很难过, 但是..
当我们最软弱的时候,就显得我们的神的大能. 让我们经历神的恩典…
祷告 I Pray
E B7/Eb C#m G#m A E/G#
祷告因为我渺小 祷告因为我知道我需要 明瞭
F#m B7 E B7/Eb
你心意对我重要 祷告已假裝不了
C#m G#m A E/G# F#m B7
祷告因为你的爱我需要你关怀我走过的你都明白
E G#m A G#m
有些事我只想要对你说因你比任何人都爱我
F#m C#m A B7
痛苦從眼中流下 我知道你为我擦
E G#m A B7 E
在早晨我也要來对你说主耶稣今天我为你活
F#m E A E/G# F#m B7 E
所需要的力量都天天赐给我 你恩典夠我用
English (for eugene haha)
In church im a small leader, Im the eldest in the family, in esther house im a senior, thats
not fun to getting old, haha . except i’m still a junior in my work place.
many times to be a leader, your actions is very influencial.. and people will think that you are competent in many areas.
” this week im very busy, so cannot come..” “can you replace this for me?” this is usual things thats always hear. Else, there is forever un ending meetings to attend haha.
” this week meeting you must come” sometimes i wish to reject so that can pakto hehe. But coz of the meeting is compulsary so i cancel my original date due to last minutes inform. Sometimes makes me even angry is people come really late.. @.@ ( this is long time ago story, now my time management much better d hehe).
I consider a perfectionist, therefore I am emotional. In reality, manythings will make me sad & worried. Many times i condemm myself for Im not good enough thats why bad things happen. (ricky know me very well in this.) Recently there is things happen, and i do not know who to turn to at home..
” why your face look so bad today?” Siew lin ask “ah nothing, just doesn sleep well” I don dare to look at her, I only tell her few days later.
“actually you can tell some of your housemates, they are very mature” i only realize that iM very foolish to keep everything myself, i am just human after all who no need to pretend to be happy all the time.
Im just a human with alot of weaknesses, i wish to tell some group of people that i understand your feeling, I concern each one of you. I will be worried if any one of you facing problems and trials. But I am certain that this is just a temporary period, when we are weak then He is strong..
